Categories: depression-health
Tags: depression
Date: 07 April 2011 19:58:31
I didn't intend this blog to focus so much on depression, but then I didn't intend my life to do that either. So you can deal with it. Below is how I felt this morning. It's not how I feel now. Nevertheless I log it here. I don't know what I expect you to do with it:
I want to punish myself for not being good enough. Not beautiful enough, not funny enough, or kind or clever or strong enough. I want to make sure I understand this time. I want to beat it into myself that I Must Be Better than this. I've never felt like this towards another human being, not ever. Only myself.