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Date: 02 September 2004 13:36:08
I need to practice my faith. I'm sick of believing and not believing, feeling and not feeling, depending on what day it is, and to whom I've spoken. I need prayers to pray, and candles to light, and bread to break. I need vistas to gaze at, paths to walk on and people to talk to. And I don't mean on one day a week. What kind of faith exists one day a week? A pretty piss poor one.
And at the same time I'm sick of people telling me how to act and how to smile at the weekly Praise and Worship with hand waving™ time. I think I need something more to call on when I need it. Something more than, "God, um..., Jesus, ." (not that that doesn't work) I need accepting people in a place where anyone can fit in. I need open crowd. Prostitutes and Pharisees, tax collectors, children with lunch and families without, men, women, religious lawyers and fishermen, all hanging out together, free to ask questions of Jesus.