Lost

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Date: 29 October 2004 11:05:37

I have been missing people lately. I'm dragging up precious memories of friendships I've had. The type of friends with whom you simply click. The type of friends to whom you can tell your deepest feelings. The type of friends with whom you'd rather spend time than do anything else. Even above spending time cleaning the house.

I've set aside six months to do nothing. To get things ordered, to not meet new people. I am next year to throw myself into community life, visiting neighbours, joining clubs, getting out there, getting known to lots of people. And all I can think about is the wonderful, warm, safe and accepting friendships I have had. I'm craving safety, that feeling of peace to just be, with other people. How is this achieved?

I don't want to be digging up those old friendships. I want to have my need for relationship, help and support met by those in my community. There's no other way to bond, or to be a real, whole person to others. I want Jesus to be visible in my whole life, to those around me.

Maybe part of my six months is a time of letting go before moving on.