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Date: 16 March 2005 02:23:33
Yesterday I saw my mentor-y type person. I have concluded that since I don't know how to answer all those, "And how does that make you feel?" questions, that I mustn't feel anything. I'm sure by the continual questioning about feelings, that I am supposed to be able to explore how every event makes me feel. I become aware of my feelings, identify them and move towards a solution almost instantaneously. I wonder if there is something wrong with me. It made me feel flat, quite lonely, isolated, a bit distant, quiet, melancholy, worried, contemplative and soulful. (I have a list of feeling words)
[Brief pause to notice the tension in my life - I have no feelings, which makes me feel... Solution necessary? No. Move on.]
Today I was telling yesterday's experience to another mentor-y type person (I call him 'my rabbi''). He said my 'solve it now' approach is **perfectly normal** for someone of my personality and giftings.
I'm so excited. I'm normal. I burden has lifted. My responses are legitimate. I am healthy. I am not repressed. Now I feel lighthearted, relaxed, satisfied, grateful, sparkling, sunny and just plain happy.