Categories: news-from-depressionland
Tags: depression
Date: 22 September 2007 21:40:27
After several weeks of feeling really good, energetic, positive and capable, I've suddenly hit a wall of tiredness, irritability and discouragement. This is not as bad (yet) as the crash I was expecting, but it's still disappointing not to feel as well as I did. The trouble with having been depressed for so many years is that you forget what normal everyday emotions are like, and so if you feel a bit down - because the weather's not so good, or things aren't going so well today, or whatever (which everyone does sometimes) you start to think you're getting depressed again. OTOH, if you are feeling bright, happy and on top of things, you start to think 'Oh, I must be healed, I'll never feel bad again' which is plain silly.
How to tell the difference between the normal ups and downs of life and an unhealthy cycle of almost-mania and real depression? I don't know, which is why I've asked to be re-referred to a psychiatrist. So what do I go and do? Get given an appointment the day before my son's birthday in August, and what with getting last minute presents and organizing a party, I forget all about it! D'oh. So now it's waiting time again..