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Date: 02 March 2008 13:32:09
Wearing new clothes in brighter colours.
Laughing with my son.
Sunshine.
Seeing the very beautiful old man I sometimes see in Tesco.
Such are the little blessings that lift me, even if only for a moment, out of the despair which seems to be my default mode at present. And, contrariwise, as Tweedledee would say, there are the things that tip me back into feelings of failure:
Dropping a matzo butter side down onto my Sunday skirt.
Putting a cup of coffee clumsily on a shelf so that it immediately falls off and dashes its contents all over a bag of books, my legs and the carpet.
And frustration at my clumsiness breeds more clumsiness.. which perhaps means that calming, cheering events could also breed calm and cheerfulness - if I can only steer life in the direction of the positive (or is that all too Pollyanna?).
I need some of that Gelassenheit again (German word meaning Gelassenheit).