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Date: 05 March 2006 07:42:57
Today has been wierd, good wierd, but wierd. Before I get going must say that did have alot more sleep last night and so cannot put this down to sleep deprivation, although the events of the previous night do sort of come into it.
Anyway, after collecting the milk when down to the thinking bench (which is now becoming part of my routine). Was looking out at the sea, which was calmer but still a bit choppy, and kept going back to the "is anyone in control?" question I had had the other night. Sitting there thinking about it all took me back to when I'd been at uni & had been caught up with the CU for a while, (one of my housemates had been a bit of a Jesus freak & had dragged me along to alot of their stuff).
I've never discounted the possibility of God, but I've never been 100% convinced either, there's too much suffering about and religion just seems to cause too many problems. Also the talks at the CU seemed quite alot of the time to be based on who's in with God and who's not and the fact you need to change the people who aren't.
Anyway getting back to today I was sitting there, looking out at the sea & remembering this one guy who'd come and given a chat. He had said that God had created everything and was in overall control but we were messing it up big time because we wouldn't listen to God, but one day God would come back and repair the damage big time, in the meantime we should start trying to minimise the amount of damage to be repaired.
Well I was sitting thinking about it all when I got this kind of feeling, which I can't explain. It was sort of like being totally blissed out, but without taking anything.