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Date: 11 March 2006 09:07:57
You know a couple of days ago I was thinking of jacking this in and going back to being Mr. Average, well now the weather has been kind enough to let me have two nights sleep in a row I've been able to seriously consider it, without a lack of sleep interfering. Whilst eating yet another bowl of pasta, bacon, (left with the milk in the box), and cheese sauce I have come up with a list of pro's, con's and made a decision.
The list was as follows:
Pro's: I am having time to work out what I want out of life, I am appreciating nature much more, it is giving me time to find a deeper bit of me which I can't explain but I know is there, I would show everybody that Mr Average can actually stick at something and make a success of it and I wouldn't have to put up with all the mickey taking I'd get off S and the others "The Cabbage Patch Kid" didn't make it.
Con's: I am lonley, due to the weather I'm not sleeping properly, I miss my cat, I miss my friends, I miss having noise around me, my thoughts are getting a bit wierd and so I'm worried I'm starting to lose it, I'm a bit bored, I have no idea what is going on in the world and I'm starting to remember an awful lot of stuff, not all of it good.
So my decision, well, I'm going to stay, but I'm going to try and find some more stuff to fill up my day. Also I'm going to compromise a bit and bung a note and a bit more cash in the box and ask S's aunty to start getting me a newspaper. I know this sounds mad but I really am panicing that something like September 11th could have happened and I would be the only person not to know.