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Date: 24 March 2006 09:09:03
Ok, today I have decided to sort of break the lent thing, but sort of carry it on.
I am letting the character go, but carrying on with the headings I had. The plan was to explore the idea of taking space out to prepare for a change, but I think that it's not achieving that. Also it was to try and make me think about what I blogged and why, but I fear it was just turning into a weak narrative.
That said I had planned out 40 headings, which were the only plan I had with the thing - so I am going to keep with my headings. So today is fear, but before I go there I just want to add in what everybody else has said on the subject - I am really pleased the CPTers are free, praise God but continue to pray for hostages and those who are subject to the oppression of violence be that state sponsered or otherwise :D
Anyway onto the subject of fear. As a parent I tend to do worry, which on a bad day can turn to fear. The fears I have relate mostly to the future and the what ifs. These tend to be the what if fears about stuff that is unlikely to happen. I am slowly realising though that these fears are dangerous, they transmit to Third Party and contribute to a mind set that says I should be afraid, rather than a mindset that says I should be excited.
So am thinking I need to transmit more hope and stuff to her. I can only teach her not to fear if the dominant messages are hope and a willingness to engage with the other and reject the modern mindsets of it being dangerous to dream and work for the impossible, whilst being realistic about the costs that may be involved. That's why I hope she can see past some of the media messages being put forward about the whole CPT thing and actually learn something positive out of their whole experience.