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Date: 12 August 2008 11:13:54
Today is the 2nd anniversary of my mums death and so today I pause a moment to remember a remarkable woman whom I have only recently begun to properly appreciate.
I miss her but realise that in her passing, (and that of my paternal grandma which took place a few months before), I have been given a gift. I have been granted the gift of a new kind of independence and freedom which comes when the physical presence is removed but the spirit remains. As I look forward I know that much of my ability to do what I'm currently doing comes from mum and her support of me through times when I was both doing things she both did and didn't agree with.
She was a woman who had her faults and was v. human in many ways, but she was also an extraordinary woman. As I say it is only recently I have realised how much I have to thank my mum for. She taught me through her example, rather than her words: the valuing of hard work, the valuing of people more than procedures, the belief that if you know the system then you can do your best to ensure that it works as it should, the value of following dreams and being the best you can, the belief that if you "make it" you have a duty to ensure that others are given the same opportunity, the value of family and so much more.
So as I sit, surrounded by boxes and in a phase of uncertainty, looking at Third Party growing up too quickly, I know that it will all work out somehow; that I will make it work but it won't be easy. I know this because I am her daughter and she has passed her spirit on to me and onto Third Party. In remembering her I am thankful to God for how I have been blessed by my parents and as I embark on the current adventure, having to reach deep into my own reserves, I continue to discover the true inheritence she has left.