Growing up, spending out

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Date: 22 February 2007 19:06:14

Something I discovered as I grew older was that being a GLE provides a a cosy ickle sub-culture, which is really quite a small world.

As I temporarily gave up Greenbelt and started to "do" Spring Harvest and Detling I would regularly bump into a range of people who I'd known over the years. After all the evo world is an ickle smaller than many of us would like to think. On top of this I bought the CD's (which really weren't that good), the paperbacks, the mugs and very occassionally I succumed to the t-shirts. Within this world it really is all too easy for something that resembles worship to be manufactured as easily as everything else, because you're so busy buying into a whole culture that you just don't notice.

At the same time I was living through a haze of life which was a lot more spiky than the fluffy evo world that I wanted to inhabit and would regularly escape to. When Marx said religion was the opium of the people, and Freud said religion was a psychological crutch I don't think they were too far away from the truth in one way. Whilst they got in wrong in terms of thinking the God at the centre of it isn't real the evo ideal does allow one to atleast temporarily escape from facing up to reality and at times dealing with the real issues by replacing them with a whole set of false ones.

I'm not saying that nothing in the evo world is real or all of it is manufactured or even that the way they approach things doesn't kind of help when you're deep in the **** that is life. It's just when I woke up to life (and the Seroxat fog lifted) that I saw God and the evo world I was buying into weren't one in the same. God is bigger than that sub-culture and so is life.