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Date: 03 April 2007 07:07:54
For the past 25 years I have lived, largely in a bubble. A bubble partly of my own making, but also constructed by others. It is a bubble which has at times been suffocating, but has largely been comfortable because it is safe. A couple of years ago I tried to escape the bubble, but just ended up extending it, so with its increased dimensions it became less cramped.
This bubble has been constructed of a range of building materials; services, prayer meetings, "Christian" websites, conferences, friends who share the same social characteristics / faith and books. Within the bubble I knew I was safe because within it I could never fall over the edge (it worked much in the same way as the flat earth theory).
Recently though I have had to start altering the way I look at the bubble. Whilst it will still be home and the place I go to shelter it has changed. A small hole has developed and I have started to tentitatively imagine what life would be like going to and forth through the hole, as I think the person who drew up the original plans intended.
I have begun to see that if I begin to come out and interact with those outside the bubble more my life may have many more possibilities of enrichment (in a range of ways) and also I may start to actually live in a way which is more authentic to the faith that I have been using to shield me from the reality of life.
I'm hoping that I can keep going with this and not just retreat back inside for good, we'll have to wait and see.