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Date: 16 June 2007 12:52:01
Life journeys are strange things. You think you have them sorted and then s**t something comes along and alters the whole course of them. At the time it may seem like the whole world is falling apart and that life will always be the puddle by the bus stop throwing endless amounts of kak over you. However, you get to a point when you are able to stop, look back and say actually I wouldn't have had the alternative after all.
I think I am in one of those places at the moment. This I morning got the first completed draft of the dis printed off ready to take with me to my supervisor on Monday and washed Third Party's poncho come blanket thing (ready to pack her off to Glastonbury with her grandfather). At work I am starting to fiddle with the resources bank I have to get it as I want it for next year and as I look out the window I see the rain filling the sea, as the summer showers fall. In my personal life I am living it and building networks (and for 24 hours atleast) honestly thinking that not having a significant other has distinct benefits because it allows me to be completely selfish and do what I want, when I want without having to consider the needs of another.
All very different to the life I imagined 16 years ago yesterday when I tripped up the steps going into church to get hitched. Please don't get me wrong, I'm not saying marriage is a bad thing and I'm really pleased when marriages do work out and start for the right reasons. It's just upon reflection I really think I wouldn't have had the life I do now if it had all worked out. The ending may have been happy but I really don't think it would have been so interesting.