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Date: 24 January 2011 10:53:19
It's 3 weeks into the project and whilst I've touched on it before I wanted to give a whole short post today on how I'm finding it and how I'm doing it.
The whole thing started as a challenge - something which was going to be a chore but I've realised it's turning into something else. This reading the bible in a year is giving me 20 minutes or so each day when I give myself permission to simply be and get centred.
As previously mentioned I do it on the train or in the kitchen whilst a meal is cooking, with a cup of tea. So in someways I am slotting it in between stuff that "has to happen". But in the mist of that busyness and I am finding time when I give myself permission to be. It is not "wasting time" when I should be doing something else. Now I know sitting with God is never wasting time, but sometimes developing my own needs rather than getting on with something else can seem like it. Doing this way when there is natural time in a short journey or whilst food is cooking is finding natural spaces in my rhythem of life when I can simply chill with God.
This project is developing a peace and contentment within me during these times.
As for the picture of God which is emerging, well I am becoming more settled with the unsettledness of it. The wrestling has subsided for a while and what is emerging is more of a gentle tussell.
Today I will read Gen 47:13 - 48:22, Matt 16:21 - 17:13 and Proverbs 3:1 -10. I know looking at the headings I will have several WTF moments, but equally I know I am getting through this an insight into the big picture of the complexity of humanity and spirituality and the impact of our actions on ourselves and future generations.
All of that may seem a bit deep, but as I said in the title the biggest thing I am getting out of this project is the permission to be each day and that if nothing else is v. cool. So thank you to whoever in Methodist House or wherever came up with this idea. It seems the Deepening Discipleship Site is the key vehicle for whatever committee / group it was.