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Date: 22 March 2008 08:22:56
I am just getting a grip on how much we don't realise the seriousness of some of the stuff we sing in church sometimes.
For example over the years I have happily sung I The Lord of Sea and Sky by Daniel L Schuttehich, the chorus of which says:
"Here I am Lord
Is it I Lord
I have heard you calling in the night
I will go Lord, if you lead me
I will hold your people in my heart"
Whilst I have meant the words when I have sung them I have not understood the significance of them. Now, however, with the acceptance to the uni sent off and my resignation letter sitting on my computer ready to be handed into personnel on Tuesday when I'm back at work they have a meaning which is entirely different. I have heard God (not audibly, but I believe I have heard Him) calling me to hold his people in my heart and now he is leading me into an unknown.
Whilst excited and believing fully I am doing the right thing, though, I am terrified. I realised that due to everything involved I couldn't wait to get funding in place before I acted and so am trusting that somehow it comes through. As one person has said to me, this is all just so mad, (even for me), that she thinks I have heard God right.
I apologise if this whole topic is getting boring for you to read about and will fully understand if people stop reading this blog for a while, but my support networks, of which you regular reader are a part, are vitally important at the moment. I thank God for you, together with my real life support networks who have reacted in ways which have totally astounded me, (for example one of the guys I get the train to work with gave me a bunch of stamps on Thursday so I can start getting letters sent out, looking for funding, over this weekend).
Within this all, though, please could you especially pray for Third Party. It's one thing for God to have given me a crazy calling which is taking me on an adventure, but quite another for a teenager to be dragged hundreds of miles across the country, away from all her family and friends to a city she's never visited and a place where she knows nobody. She is being really great about it, but I know it won't be easy. It also won't be easy for her living with a stressy mum (which I think I'm likely to be even more than usual whilst this is in the air). Therefore if nothing else please can you pray for her, if you are a praying person.