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Date: 14 May 2008 07:11:24
Disengagement is a strage process which I want to fight against with every fibre of my body, yet it's a process which is also necessary. I am starting to see it happening in ickle ways and occassionally not so ickle ways.
At work I want (and aim) to give 100% until I go, yet when discussion moves to next year my mind switches off slightly.
In terms of church I want to make moving on an ickle easier for myself (I am going to miss the HBBC crowd soooo much - it is an amazing church) and so have started to find myself disengaging in not so good ways. This is not good. This church has become my home in ways I really can't describe. They have seen the good, the bad and the downright ugly with me over the last few years and accepted me just as I am throughout. So as much as I might try to disengage I need to accept on one level they will always be a part of my life. Without them I wouldn't find myself seeking to explain good practice.
I guess this is why I have never quite been able to leave - the church may not be perfect but it is home.