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Date: 22 November 2004 20:39:34
Went to (formal) church last night, first time I'd been to an evening service in ages (although I generally prefer them to morning services). It was soooo cool in a wierd way. After the singing and praying we just had a dip into the bible and discussed the beginning of 1 Peter, seeing as nobody came up with any general questions they wanted to discuss. It was a bit strange as, I was expecting a bit of Hymn Rivita (not quite the full hymn sandwich you get in the mornings, but near enough). Cynical part of me says that some people have nothing to lose when they've already set a date to move on, but it was cool & just really nice (sorry, but sometimes "nice" is just the right positive word, without the sarcastic tone added).
Anyway it's been 2 weeks running that I've been to church because I want to, not because I feel I ought to & felt chilled with it. It's a bit wierd in some ways because I know it'll never feel / be the same as before, but I guess that's good. I feel God's started to take me in some good directions and helped me make some good choices by being out of "formal church" for a while (blogging and the Wiblog community for one).
I've just got to sort out how I continue the journey within the institution again, although I think I posted my own answer to that the other day when I was talking about dropping the labels and keeping the identity. I'm going to start by focusing on advent and the importance of it for the next few weeks & then we'll see where it goes, somehow the church calander seems more important now. I guess that I just need to focus on God (or the glimpses of him I get, 'cause I know if I think I'm getting any more than glimpses it'll be because I'm putting him in my box) and go into church with my brain aswell as my heart and spirit.