Warning - the following combines humour with self - indulgence

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Date: 19 December 2004 14:07:35

Ok, this is going to be a clear my head blogg, because I am having one of the very best weekends combined with the very worst.

First off, party last night was v. civillised & grown up, but a really lovely evening. No need for pretension or anything, just a chance to chill & meet new people in comftable home where the hosts had by making it child friendly & making sure they offered transport if required really made you feel welcome. Discovered Fondue is fun & v. tasty.

Then this morning a bunch of us (including host and her kids) came back and after a pancake breakfast we headed off to see Third Party in the nativity.

Here was where my head splits into two. Turns out wasn't just kids & young people, but all the cell groups got involved aswell. This led to a service which was well cute & almost Monty Pythonish in it's humour. Highlights being : Two narrators in nativity arguing about whose turn it was to say the words
Child saying v. loudly during one of the cell group dramas that one character is "a very silly man"
Following comment on Eve and tree of knowledge, the line "perhaps it was the pair under the tree which were the problem" (10 minutes afterwards I clicked on to fact line was referring to Adam & Eve, not just Eve - having thought you can't say that in church).
Young people making jokes about minister being full of hot air & Tony Blair being too full of spin & just v. good @ smiling & nodding & v. dodgy rhyme about bras & knickers - think this was related to Kylie Minogue, but I kind of lost track.

So that's why it was really cool & lovely. However, seeing so many people involved & knowing another 9 involved tonight + musicians it really made me feel like an outsider because I'm not involved in anything. I know it's stupid, but it kind of makes it feel like I'm not really part of the church, even though I know I am.

Also it is 20 years ago today (well Sunday before Christmas) since I first got together with Third Party's dad, who is currently taking her to lunch before giving her their prezzies. I know the past is the past, but hey with the Band Aid stuff, I'm finding it really hard to forget the significance of Christmas 1984. (Sorry moan over, but I'm kind of struggling). Sorry if that's too self-indulgent, but I need to get it out, not because I want sympathy, but I need to let people kinda know why I'm such a miserable person @ moment when I know I have an easy life of which I should just be greatful.