Over the next 6 weeks or so......

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Date: 06 July 2008 17:58:54

I have been falling apart just an ickle this week; getting stressed about the adventure as I have begun to realise quite how real it all is and quite how much there is not sorted. Therefore I have decided to do myself a list.....but make it a list I can share. The aim of this is to, atleast feel, like I'm regaining control.

Now I know that most people who read this don't live near no-where-ville, but I think the very odd person might and so I think this list is kind of asking those who live near enough to have a look and see how they might be able to help me.

Boxes......I need cardboard boxes but (i) I don't have a car & (ii) I'm not entirely sure where one finds boxes these days as supermarkets flatten them quickly.

Once I have the boxes I need to pack them. I also need to be realistic though about where I am moving to and "declutter" through seeing what realistically needs to go to the recycling or charity shop. For me this has the potential to act as a major stress trigger. Any advice on how to do it systematically and without panicing at the sheer size of the task would be appreciated.

I then need to get some stuff to the recycling bank and / or the dump. Now I know logically all I will have to do is get on the phone to somebody, but ...... well logic is going out the window an ickle at the moment. There is also the odd bit of stuff around the flat I need to get sorted.

Job hunting needs to become a priority. I have sent the CV around to all the FE colleges in the area, but it was pointed out last week that what I really need to do is also get in touch with the 6th forms and colleges in Tyne and Wear aswell as Durham. I need to get a list and get my CV printed out asap.

Additionally I need to get myself registered with the appropriate temping agencies, aswell as getting myself sorted with looking at the vaccancies in the local paper in Durham. This requires me to find out what the local in Durham is called.

As for the housing thing, I will know mid-July if I have anywhere from the beginning of September (as opposed to the October I know I am sorted from). However, it won't be until the beginning of August that I am able to make the final decision as to whether this whole adventure is going to be full time or part time. If it turns out to be part time I will be house hunting from early August as I become ineligable for the planned accomodation.

I also need to contact the school Third Party is going to be going to in order to sort out some of the finer details.

The fees are coming along and the first bits have been paid into the bank, but I still need to get myself some major funding. I have one possible source, but to be honest I'm not holding my breath. Therefore, I need to think a little wider out of the box.

One major concern that is emerging, from those who know me best, relates to my accessing of a support network. To reassure them, as much as give myself piece of mind, I am going to have to get plugged into a church pretty quickly when I get up there. This is proving an ickle bit of a nightmare in its own way, and to be honest is scaring me an ickle.

I know I will get there and somehow it will happen, but I know that it's going to require an ickle help from my firiends (and that I'm going to have to start asking for that help). That for me is the most difficult thing....I've decided to embark on this journey and I should be able to do it on my own. Previously I would have had my mum on the end of the phone telling me (and Third Party) what to do and checking I'd done it and dealing with my strops along the way. I suddenly find myself missing her "unwanted advice" an awful lot.