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Date: 23 August 2006 13:20:21
I received some good news this morning.
I received an e-mail from Mazda UK telling me that I had passed the initial selection to take part in a Special Ops Driving Training day in 2 weeks time. I had been hoping for this. Now I get to see if I can still handle a car
on the track and in skids etc.
Then I got to thunking (intentional error)......
This driving experience will be a way of testing my skill behind a wheel but also to learn skills. Hopefully this will make me even safer behind the wheel than I am now. I know that FW sometimes gets a little nervous when the car goes over 40 and I throw it into some tight corners.
Driving is something that you should strive to continually improve. I've always believed that its 50% self confidence 40% concentration and 10% luck. The idea is that you improve your confidence and concentration while lowering the need for luck.
Likewise, as Christians, we need to strive to improve our spiritual knowledge and skills. It is important that we learn more and trust more. That way we grow in our spiritual life. As you do this you begin to lower that little area that is self doubt. You will grow in your walk with God and slowly those doubts you get will begin to receed. They may never disappear but they will shrink.
Some people tell me that I seem to have a laidback attitude to my life. I don't seem to worry about things I can't control. I appear to have an inbuilt assurance that everything will work out for the best. Why? Am I somehow less concerned than other people?
No. Over 41 years I've learnt that worrying about things you can't control does you no good whatsoever. In this time I've made many mistakes - lots of small ones and a few big ones as well. Slowly I've discovered what I can and can't solve personally. I've learnt that those things I have no control over can be passed onto God and left to Him. Either He'll sort it directly or show me what I need to do.
Don't get me wrong. I don't think I have a answer for everyone. Its a very slow process that took 20 years of thought and trials to get right. I can't even describe how it happens. Now its like a natural function in my life.
FW often tells me that she envys my calmness in certain situations in life. She'd like to know how I do it. Yet, unfortunately I can't physically describe it. Its a process that happens of its own accord.
Its like driving. I was taught how to do it by an instructor and my father. I can tell you how its done but I can't actually complete the process for you. It is something that people need to do on their own, yes with help certainly but at the end of the day they need to find their own way to handle the process.