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Date: 01 February 2012 20:28:24
I feel bad for saying this, knowing what is going on in other peoples life, but I’m grumpy and not that happy with life at the moment. There is no reason, yes it’s winter, I have study to do, and soon go on placement. All things to cause me stress/ make me less happy with life. They are all things that I should deal with, and I am, but still just feel a little miserable. Nothing major, just a little blue I think would be the best description. I look at my life and know I really don’t have a right to moan when I look at my friends life. At the moment one of my friends who I would moan to at moments like this is not well. This has several effects for me, which I feel bad about moaning about as I feel for her, and am amazed by how well she is coping with the situation, but sometimes we need to be a little selfish and think how we feel. At the moment due to coping and treatment she is tired and so I talk less to her. Also I feel bad for moaning about things when I know I have so much. I know she doesn’t mind, but that doesn’t stop me feeling like I shouldn’t moan. Also I am not living near there, I feel helpless in the situation. This in someways is a good thing for me. I realise that I can define who I am by how much I help others, so being forced to not help is hard, but good for me. I have other friends, one of whom who knows me well and how to deal with me at these moments, is also shall we just say having a “busy” week. I know it will pass, and I am grateful for my friends.