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Date: 01 February 2011 18:14:17
Sometime days are not what you want. Things just don’t work how you want, and what you would really like is to stay in bed where it is warm sleep some more, then watch cheese tastic D.V.D’s, while drinking hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows, but actually what you have to do is go out in the cold and wet to do battle with the paperwork at work. You feel down just because it’s cold and wet. Just because life is, well life. Then something happens to stir a memory, to remind you when things really were bad, when it was a case of paint the smile on so that no one would know, would be able to see the hurt and confusion, and in some ways despair. When I couldn’t risk the mask slipping because I didn’t want anyone to make me face the truth. Looking back life has not turned out the way I thought it would, but thinking about what I thought the future could hold at one point, I’m glad that I got the future I am now living in. It’s not perfect, but it’s a lot better than it could have been. So on days when I feel just that little fed up, I should remember it’s really not that bad.