Contradictions

Date: 12 May 2010 12:09:48

With the new government being announced I have been reflecting. I am eternal optimist so I hope that they bring about change for good. Thinking about it both in response to the news and also in response to others views, I realise that I am a mixture of contradictions. I grew up in conservative heart land. Where Margaret Thatcher was thought of as a good prime minister, who was doing what was best for the country. I know that by this point there will be lots of people jumping up and down to point out things she did that would not be viewed like this, but a part of my sub-conscious has taken this, and keeps it. Even before leaving home I had already decided that I didn’t like “new” labour as they were too right-wing. I left home and decided that I definitely have left wing-leanings. I’ve now reached the position where I am left-wing but with a soft spot for Thatcher, combine this with, seeing that true socialism only works when people are unselfish and due to the fall we are not unselfish. I’m left in a position where I want to be left-wing, but realise that we have to work within a fallen world, and that to take others with us, maybe being more right-wing is the way to achieve more, because we will be able to take small steps together instead of being fought every-step of the way. As you can see I am a mass of contradictions.
This mass of contradictions is reflect in the way I view church, and to a certain extent God. Again I was brought up within conservative Christianity. Part of me still embraces this, but part of me sees the bigger picture. I struggle with church and the way we do things, but part of me wants to not think and stay where it is safe, and part of me wants to move forward to that world of uncertainty. But if I step into that world of uncertainty what will happen. I believe that God is bigger than church but am I willing to put that into practice. Also I am a firm believer in the Church (by this I mean the fellowship of all believers through time and space.) How do I ensure that I meet with others in order to grow as Christians, which I believe is important, making sure that we do not depart from orthodox beliefs (I am fairly broad in my definition of orthodox beliefs.) Yet again I have more questions than answers.