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Date: 17 June 2007 11:10:00
So, it's about time I filled you in on what's been going on in the last couple of weeks, and I suppose for that matter the last couple of months. Reader, you will no doubt be aware that in the last six months I've been doing a lot of evaluating of where I am both geographically and mentally, trying to hear what God has for me and how I'm supposed to do it. I've made lots of vague comments, but I haven't offered you much in the way of actual factuals. Well, I've decided to be open with you now, because it generally works a lot better that way. So I'll start with the big thing: I'm looking for a new job. There, I've said it.
This probably isn't the place to go into the specifics, but here's a potted history: nearly a year ago, I started wondering if office/admin work was really what I wanted to be doing, or whether it was just a rut that I'd got myself stuck in. Then the pressure of my job got too much for me and I went off sick with stress for two months. Upon my return, my managers were very understanding and supportive, even in light of the fact that I'd mentioned that I wasn't sure I was in the right job, and they suggested I give it three-to-six months to see how I felt then. Well, seven months have gone by now, and I really don't think I can carry on like this. I know my job is particularly pressurised in comparison with many posts on the same grade in the same organisation, and that is definitely a factor. But the more I've thought it through, the more I've realised that I'm a people person, not a paper person; but I've ended up in a job where I'm shifting paper for the vast majority of the time and getting little face-to-face contact with anyone other than my colleagues. And I'm not happy.
Which brings me to the big question - so, if you're not going to work in an office, what are you going to do instead? And that's been the problem for me - I've had little idea what I want to do, just lots of ideas of what I didn't want. However, the last few weeks have seen some very supportive friends give me lots of encouragement and suggestions (often quite unsolicited) about what they think I'd be good at. Now I just need to pull my finger out and get on with looking for something. Of course, that's a time consuming process anyway, and when you've already got a job and have to make time around it to look for another one, it just seems like a hassle. But I know I can't go on much longer with what I'm doing now, so I have to make the time.
And now I don't know how to finish this, so... erm, well... er, yeah, so there we go. We'll bring you more news as we get it.