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Date: 31 October 2007 16:14:55
I'm ill. I've had a bad cold for well over a month, but that's not it. I have no energy whatsoever - an example, I spent yesterday relaxing because I was going to a Paul Cornell talk in the evening (which was absolutely fantastic) I left home about 4.40 and got back at 11 which was 5 or six hours, which thinking about it is quite a long time...but still...Today I woke up at 12 and just about got to art therapy where I spent the whole hour crying because I was so exhusted I didn't have the energy to do ANYTHING. And now I'm shattered. All I want to do is sleep but I've got a movement article to write and have first aid in 2 hours anyway.
I'm sure I'm not doing too much - I have one day out at church, two nights at first aid and one lecture a week - that's all and I'm spending every day exhusted. And although I keep telling myself that it's not affecting work it is. The fact I have 24 hours to write an article shows that it is.
The worst think is that it's not depression. I'm feeling fine in a mental health way, just absolutely exhusted. All I want to do is sleep. I was talking bout this with my therapist today and she was concerned it might be ME or CFS - she was very careful not to mention the names until I did, but she encouraged me to nag the doctor and said that something seemed to be wrong with my body.
So I've got another doctors appointment on Friday. Third one in 2 weeks. GRRRRRR.