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Date: 17 January 2003 10:58:00

i don't know why i feel this way, mum was nice to me last night, she gave me a fiver extra dinner money, so i have enough to eat tonight, i've not really written much (poem wise) for ages, been worrying loads about Claire though, i really miss her, and all my friends at my old college...i miss having people around me i could trust, joking in lessons and arguing with teachers, i miss all my friends at the churches i went to and the mad things i got up to there...

i wish i still lived in Marple, i am *so* lonely at the moment it's unbelievable...

i'm struggleing to stay alive, only i have to cos i said i'd help at Visions set-up on sunday...

why do i feel like this?