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Categories: uncategorized

Date: 22 January 2003 10:01:00

had a crap night last night, got called a lazy cow, told i'll never be anything, or get anywhere, that i was just a failure...told to pull my self together.

Then when i was upstairs in my room, i heard her say to my sister that she hated me so much, that i was ruining her life. She told my sister to make sure she didn't grow up to be like me...

(worrying bit coming up, please dont worry too much though)
i decided that she would be better of without me, that i was so much of a worthless failure that i may as well be dead.
i spent loads of time trying ot contact people, only i have no credit..
and i tried to hang myself...
it would have worked only i chickened out.
and my neck hurts.
sorry to have worried people, it's just i'm treating this 'blog like a journal, and if you want me to just write boring "what i did at college today" stuffs then tell me and i will!