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Date: 20 November 2005 11:26:02
Faith lost it's promise
And bruised me deep blue
Turn me tender again
Through union with you"
Occasionally there is a song that is my prayer, and right now it's turn me tender by Martyn Joseph - It's happened again the colourless sky has dimmed me again and i've run out of why...and the pledge and the vow is "you find if you seek" but what if i try and find nothing but bleak I know that part of this is the depression rearing it's ugly head again, but my faith is next to nothing, and I'm not sure how to revive it. At the moment the only part of my life that I'm truely enjoying are the parts which have no relation to faith - like doug soc, watching sci fi and making ceri a birthday cake. Things like Chapel, Visions, CF...even generally being with christian friends worry me.
And I don't want to go to church tonight, but have to because i need to pick up a veg box - which i won't use because i can't be bothered to cook for myself as i feel crap.
but hey! Doctor who came back on friday, so everything's not that bleak. Honest.