To be or not to be....

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Date: 23 June 2004 22:30:39

I was shattered last night. Can you tell? This aquafit lark is certainly having some sort of effect on my body, even if it's not making me any slimmer. I am bound to lose weight if I sleep through my meals. Not that that was the case yesterday, as I washed my exercise down with a box of chips and a box of chocolates, but the tiredness is still hovering round today and certainly affected how much tea I ate. More aquafit tomorrow.

Actually, I had to be careful as I have an extremely bruised foot at the moment. I hope it isn't broken as I don't think Tiddles could cope with the guilt. His first tantrum in months, and he just couldn't stop himself from hitting out and sending me flying. He was devastated afterwards, of course. I suggested he might like to kiss my foot better but, although he was full of remorse, he wouldn't go quite that far. Walking is a bit painful, though.

Torrential rain today, and blustery winds made teaching in the caravan extremely... er... interesting!

I look to have a battle on my hands at school. The current trend of targetting those children whose SATs results will directly effect the school's and government's statistics is, to my mind, quite immoral. I usually manage to ignore it, but it's hard to ignore when it means my hardest teaching group possibly increasing from seven (with three adults) to twenty-nine (with one) next year. What is happening to society where the less able seem to be getting scrap-heaped and the more able ridiculed into conformity? Whatever happened to each child learning at their own pace? To mutual support and encouragement? To catering for children's needs? It's at times like these I could easily resign from teaching, if only it weren't such a rewarding job. I was amazed today to find these seven children, who came to me unable to count, now able to add two two-digit numbers and to multiply by four.

The Smudgelet has lost another tooth. It's the final one from the front top - he is now totally gummy there and it's hysterical to watch him trying to eat an apple. This time the tooth fairy was far more efficient! This afternoon I slipped my coat on and, on putting my hand in my pocket, was promptly bitten. Yes, I'd slipped his tooth into my coat pocket out of sight and had forgotten to take it out again. Boy, was it sharp!

Yet more decisions to make and think about. Why is life never straight-forward? Still, wouldn't it be boring if it were?