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Date: 23 October 2008 10:53:02
I thought I would sit down for a little while with a cup of coffee and squander a few minutes of good house-cleaning time before setting to with a vengeance to get my home at least tidy enough to leave! I have just got back from a lovely appointment with my lovely doctor who says that I am showing, understandably, the symptoms of mild to moderate depression and not to worry about it because he'd be worried if I weren't.
Doc: How are you coping?
Me: Everyone tells me I'm coping incredibly well.
Doc: Yes, that's because you smile and get on with things. But how are you coping? .... Hold on, let me get you a tissue.... here, have another....
I am so lucky to have a practice full of doctors who care and who will give their time and really listen. And I am glad that I know it's OK to alternate between coping and not coping, laughing and crying, getting on with things and just giving in and slobbing around in my pyjamas all day and generally feeling sorry for myself. I am also grateful for the people who remind me that it still is only six weeks - for me it feels like a lifetime. And the lovely YOT lady yesterday said that my reactions were very normal, that she was amazed at how I was managing to keep my head and my sense of humour, and that the time to go back to work was when I was starting to say "I want to" instead of "I ought to". (Hmmm... mind you, pondering ever saying "I want to.." with regards MY job is an interesting intellectual challenge.... ;o) )
T&E: Why Pavlovas? Why sparkly communion table? Why just as a general concept?
And one of the inponderables of life: Why on earth do I have to memorise a "memorable information made up of numbers and letters which nobody else would guess" in addition to my user ID which is a series of numbers AND my password in order to get access to my internet banking... and I am not allowed to write these down? Have they not realised that every time I want to do any internet banking I end up having to do the "My memorable information turned out to be not so memorable" routine and then invariably set new memorable information which I know I'm going to forget... or, even worse, get confused with my previous 100 bits of instantly-forgettable memorable informations which have congealed into an amorphous blob in my brain?