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Date: 05 July 2009 21:49:39
I thought rollercoasters were supposed to have a few ups.
You know those manipulative people who post their imaginary troubles all over the internet in order to drag people in and get their attention, I feel like one of those, except that even I am beginning to wonder whether the bodyblows which keep hitting me and my loved ones can possibly be true. But they are - I know, I can feel the bruises.
I was driving along a motorway today and saw the sign for its end destination. There was a moment of temptation - keep driving. Keep driving until you can drive no further. Run away and hide.
You'll gather that, just when I thought we'd plumbed the absolute depths, I discovered that they go even deeper today. I am sitting on a timebomb and there's no escape. I find myself in a situation not of my making and beyond my controlling for which there is no "best outcome" and I simply don't know what to do. You have prayed for us so often and supported and comforted me so greatly. Please continue to pray for us: me, my sons, and my whole family. Thank you.