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Date: 04 March 2009 20:40:21
I may not be around much over the next few weeks.
It's going to be a crazy few weeks.
This might possibly be the understatement of the century.
I may, in the next few weeks, finally find out what the future holds for my son. I know already, but I may well find out for certain. This may be one of the hardest days of my life. However, that day will pass and I will survive it, as I've survived difficult days before, with God by my side and so many good people supporting me through it.
I will, in the next few weeks, take my youngest son away for a holiday. We need a break - a complete break - and a caravan in South Wales is beckoning. I can't really afford it, but my amazing young man turned to me and said "Mum, there's a difference between need and want. We need this. And if we have to do without things that we want in order to pay for this thing that we need, then we'll find the money." Such wisdom.
I will, in the next few weeks, somehow give my very best shot to an interview. It is a job I really would love. I just wish I didn't need to think about it right now - partly because I don't know whether I can afford the drop in pay and life in an expensive part of the country and partly because I love my home so much that I'm finding it difficult to contemplate leaving it. But leave it I will have to, as I cannot sustain monthly visits across the water to visit my eldest son and visits to friends and family too, it will be too draining both on my finances and on my stamina. So when a job comes along which is something that's right up your street, you don't turn round and say "Actually, it's not very convenient to come for an interview right now, I'm too busy having a nervous breakdown" ;)
Some time in the next few weeks my brother is coming to build a cupboard for me and maybe do a bit of decorating. I will clean and tidy the house for him, and he will arrive and mess it right back up again.... just in time for the arrival of my sister who will have to struggle hard not to tut! I'd say she was just like my mother, except that my mother wasn't like that :) I love her, though, and we're planning to have some chilling time together with a day at the spa amongst other things.