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Date: 11 October 2008 22:39:36
I did my Christmas cards today - well, the first round anyway. The ones to people who don't know yet.
At least it's not the first difficult Christmas letter I've written.
I decided to use the same strategy that I used when Dad was so ill - send my Christmas letters out well in advance so that people know our situation before they write their own cards.
Not sure yet how we'll manage the visits situation over Christmas - dreading that really.
Hmm... the last two days have been a bit of a struggle. Strange how stress affects the mind and body in so many different ways - the overwhelming physical tiredness which makes it hard work even to pick up a mug to make a cup of coffee, let alone do sensible things like loading the dishwasher; the inability to phrase a sentence or to keep track of what I'm saying; the lack of interest in food and inability to taste things properly; the tiredness; the fact that my brother feels constantly too hot while I feel constantly too cold (we finally twigged tonight that one way to deal with this is for us to swap seats so that I sit near the radiator and he sits away from it!); finding things like enquiring about getting my computer repaired overwhelming; being unable to think through things like alternative routes to places when my brother takes a wrong turning (where precisely does this very familiar road actually come out?) or planning what tools we'll need for a particular job which is planned to take our minds off things for a bit (fitting that sink took all day and four separate journeys to B&Q because we kept finding something else we'd forgotten to buy.... not to mention getting lost en route!).