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Date: 22 January 2009 08:16:46
Yesterday was my appointment with occupational health to discuss whether I was fit to return to work, my boss being concerned about the effects of my absence on the department. Well, actually, today was my appointment with occupational health to discuss whether I was fit to return to work. Turning up a day early was not deliberate, but I think it did show the nurse the state of my organisational skills at the moment! And she was lovely enough to fit me in.
I was worried about what on earth to say. The thing is, on a good day, I'm more than capable and ready of being back in action. As far as teaching the kids is concerned. All the other stresses, though, are incredibly daunting. I miss the kids, but not the politics. I wondered whether I was getting too used to idleness, whether my moods and muddledness and lack of ooomph were more habit now than actual reaction to what's happened and whether I needed a kick up the backside to get me back on track. If I had an ordinary job - say as the receptionist at the Occ Health offices - then I'd be more than ready to go back to it... at least on a good day, which outweigh the bad days by far.
It was such a relief to have someone in authority, someone who's job it is to assess these things, to say that the state of my mind and body at the moment are EXACTLY WHAT SHE WOULD EXPECT and that it's still very early days. That she expects the doctor to sign me off for another month and that when she reviews me at the end of that month, she expects still to say that I'm unfit for work. That I should avoid all unnecessary stress, including things like reproaching myself for not doing the housework, and should do nice things and relaxing things as far as possible. And the lovely, lovely lady, in hearing that I had a month's pass for the spa, said that she insisted I go DAILY as far as humanly possible and stay there for at least an hour, and that she would be reviewing progress in that respect in a month's time too!
So I'm sorry, I can't sit here typing all day... I have doctor's orders to follow :o)