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Date: 20 January 2005 23:26:41
I got up early to go swimming. Looked outside and it was one of those beautiful mornings where the sun was reflecting from wet spiders webs and making everything glisten. That, firstly, put me in a good mood. I then got ready and went down to the pool. It turned out I was the only one there for about 15 minutes in the lap pool (actually, anywhere in the pool complex) so that was relaxing, swimming laps all by myself. I did about 12 laps and since I haven't swum in a while, I thought that would be enough for today, had a cold shower and went home. That has been the extent of my day so far and it feels like it will be a good one.
I have made it clear to my housemate that I need time to sort things out. I'm not sure whether I am with him because he is there or whether it is more than that and it's something that I need to sort out (let alone all the other stuff that is going on in my life). I guess it may have been too soon and it's not fair on anyone when I still have strong feelings for my ex-boyfriend.
I pray the counselling is working for my ex-boyfriend. Besides the email conversation we had the other day, there has only been one bit of communication and that was to tell me something mundane. I think he might be getting over me which in a way makes me sad and depressed but it's probably good for him to be taking that step.
I have nearly finished a one a half metre crossstitch that has taken me about 3 years (on and off). I have decided to get it framed and give it back to my Oma (who gave it to me to do since her eyesight isn't as good as it was). That will give me great joy, to see her receive it. I am planning to have lunch with my Oma and Opa on the weekend so hopefully I can get it finished before then.
I remembered something poignant that happened on the weekend. At Church, we were given the option of lighting candles for tsunami victims and those helping the relief effort. Nearly everybody went up to do this including a little boy who lit his candle took a step back and said 'this is a sad birthday cake'. Although terribly sad, it was sweet that the boy could recognise the importance of it all.