My brain melted...

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Date: 11 June 2006 23:08:29

This weekend was the SCM gathering in Manchester, which meant as well as meeting up with a bunch of good friends I got to go home briefly aswell. One of the reasons I've been talking about juggling of commitments recently is that I'd agreed to stand for election to SCM's general council (GC), and this weekend was elected to the role I stood for :) Mixed emotions since the elections on saturday morning , from really pleased to be trusted with such an important role, excited about getting stuck in to the challenge of it, to unbelievably nervous of what it all entails/how I'm going to manage it/not being sure I'm up to the job etc etc. The usual stuff.

I still have no idea what I'm doing with a large part of the role, (although I'm a little more clued up thanks to helpful introductions from my predecessor and others), and by the end of Saturday my brain was fairly scrambled with too much information! Combined effects of this and other things from the weekend made my head spin quite successfully!!!

This morning in our worship I prayed for help, and the strength to be able to do the job well. And I thought about what I'd written in my reflection, and decided I have to hand this over to God. Not to give it up as too much to deal with, but to commit it to him, for his service, remembering why I'm doing it in the first place. Something said last week for the pentecost service came back to me also, that we cannot do all things on our own and in our own strength, we must rely on the spirit which gives us the strength we need. I prayed for courage when I'm scared I can't do it, for support when I feel like giving up, for guidance and wisdom for me and the other newly elected members. I don't guarantee I'll always remember this, and I'm sure there will be times when the stress gets to me, but knowing I'll have support the whole way, no matter what, makes a huge difference.