A place to call home

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Date: 04 June 2005 21:21:08

Yes, its been a while since I posted properly, and I am aware I've been tagged again. I will get to it, but as Jen predicted, it will take me a while to formulate that one.

Today I met up with a friend who I lived with in my first year at Swansea, and who's recently got engaged. That's two of my old flatmates getting married soonish. Eek. The number of people I know at the moment who are younger than me can tend to make me feel old (relatively speaking), but this is friends my age making me feel awfully young. I'm still working on just being me, with no idea about anything that permanent, and they're planning weddings and know who they're gonna spend the rest of their lives with. Not scary so much as just wierd.

Anyway, I've also been helping some friends with decorating their hallway today (so much quicker and more fun when there's a group of you!). I've always enjoyed decorating and bits of DIY (ever since my dad let me paint a bit of wall behind the fridge- where it wouldn't show- when I was younger!) and I think I knew about how to apply different types of paint long before I had a clue about make up, and I'm probably still better at the first. Today made me realise how much I want to have my own place someday. To be able to choose what colour to paint my bedroom, rather than how best to cover up the lovely 'student-house magnolia', and decide what furniture I want, instead of covering everything with throws and rugs. And to have a bathroom that I can actually enjoy having a bath in. But also to settle, to be somewhere until I want to leave, not till the contract ends. To know that whenever I come home I won't have to worry about whether my flatmate will have taken over the living room with her boyfriend, or have left the kitchen in such a state that I can't cook dinner. Somewhere that feels like home, not just a place that I live. Someday, I will, someday :)

And I'm not going to comment on the similar thoughts that friends getting engaged could induce. No point in having too many unrealistic aims ;)