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Date: 02 May 2006 23:12:10
It feels like its been a while since I did an actual news sort of blog, so I thought I'd get a few things off my chest.
Work is going ok at present, although there have been a few ups and downs recently, and the managers position is still open (there's been interviews and now second interviews- 'how much longer?' I ask myself..) and therefore everything is still hectic. I've had a serious chat with one of the managerial staff recently about them giving me more advance warning of hours and so on. We'll see how it works out..
I've been trying to get some work experience sorted out too- easier said than done! And also looking for real jobs. I've just put in an application for one. Its a little scary, its a proper job, doing the sort of thing I want to, and the description doesn't ask for much more than I have, but it sounds so real and serious and I can't help but wonder if I'm up to it and if I could actually do it. Its not the only thing I'm having this issue with at the moment.
I always worry that I'll be able to meet expectations (of my own usually, but others' too), and even though I'm confident of my own abilities, there are times (like with this job and other things) when my concerns get the better of me. Its usually when it involves taking on responsibility for things which affect other people. I'm always most bothered about letting people down and not being able to do the things they entrust me with. It doesn't help that I have more than a little of a perfectionist in me, and that to do something well I have to meet my own standards, which isn't easy.