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Date: 03 November 2007 12:26:41
hi friends...new & old. just wanted to check in and say hello. please pull up a chair and let's share a cup of tea :)
i've been busy...been working on some personal things, trying to tackle professional ones, and mixed in there are some family issues too.
i am so thankful for this community - you each have enriched my life in so many ways... thank you for your faithfulness.
in lieu of sharing what's gone on recently, i will sum up:
- i realized that i'd rather be single than date someone who has nothing to offer me (and, indeed, takes from me) sometimes i feel very much alone, and look forward to not being single anymore (but isn't this a common theme? it's the same, but a totally different experience for each person)
- i have some choices ahead regarding my profession... need to start looking into getting a 2nd master's degree so i can obtain a new certification - the nice thing is: i AM single right now, and this is the time to do it (wont' take time away from a husband and family... although, part of me wonders if going to school full-time AND working full-time might postpone a potential relationship. donno - time will tell)
- my father's poor health continues to decline. multi-system failure, is very weak, is severely depressed, difficulty with his veins (re: access for dialysis). he went to hospital for some testing...was left unattended and fell & broke his hip. so in addition to all of the other issues, he now has this recovery too. he is suffering so much... and i'm worried about my mother. i try to do what i can for her - call several times a day to check in, send uplifting notes/emails, etc. but it's not the same as giving her a hug :) (we live approx 900 miles apart) I made my father a nice, thick scarf last week & sent it with a funny card (wished i had taken a photo to share - it's my best work yet!) and he didn't even want to open the package - flat affect, no true response... he is in poor health. any thoughts/prayers/good vibes you can send his way would be much appreciated. i can't pray right now - haven't been able to for a long time. his name is charles/chuck.
- i haven't weighed-in this month (yet) but don't anticipate i've lost a significant amount of weight again (note: last month i dropped 14 pounds!) i took almost 2 weeks off from the gym...and am back on track now. i made myself go 3 times this week, and i may get my bike out today. i am 95% sure i havn'et gained, but don't think i've dropped too much either. i wonder if i should create a new blog to specifically address weight/exercise/motivation/food, etc.? it's an idea... i'll mull that one over. i could just use this one - but then you'd never know if you're getting *me* or the "diet" version :)
- rejoice! my sister in law's pregnancy is going well... and i think they know if it's a girl or a boy! (i am hoping for confirmation soon on "niece" or "nephew")
- i've decided to stop "looking" and just focus on myself right now... like continue to simplify my life by sifting through boxes, tossing things i don't want/need... that being said, i will tell you i had an excellent conversation with someone last night. now - he's an athlete, cute, and an all around good man. i'm not an athlete - but i am cute... there's just more of me to hug. i'm concerned that he wont' find me attractive - oftentimes men look *through* me...they don't even see me... and i'm not sure why, because i've got a terrific heart and a sharp brain (yet those things are on the inside). i wonder if this person will *see* me for who i am? he said a lot of the right things...but because of my experience thus far, i'll take it all with a grain of salt. i'm realistic - i get it. and i'm working on managing my weight for ME, not for a potential partner... but i realize men oftentimes miss what's inside because of the packaging. i know i've got a lot to offer the right person...and it's important that i take care of myself now - because i'm the only one looking out for me.
that being said... thank you for stopping by. i hope, wherever you are on this big green earth, you have a fantastic weekend!
DEELEEA! i got one of Katie Melua's albums - she's so good! thanks for the recommendation!
JEFF & DITH! i am in chapter 2 of the Caring For Life book... thank you!