stepping out

Tags: community, church, mental health, lists, accomplishments

Date: 26 February 2009 21:53:47

have you ever stepped out of your comfort zone?

have been feeling under the weather recently... this is my 2nd day off from work, have accomplished nothing except moving in slow motion and doing mundane tasks with increasingly great effort.

In lieu of being crabby or feeling down, I thought "I know! I'll make a happy list! Perhaps this will be the beginning of a new blog entry..."

good friends

robutussin

cellular phone service

a working car

tissues

lotion

soap

fresh water

hepa vacuum

electricity, for that matter

comphy bed upon which to lay my head

poetry, spontaneous and otherwise

Home Goods store (as i have decided to buy 1 or 2 plates of patterns i like...and fill my kitchen with an eclectic beautiful set of dishes when the ******* kitchen is complete)

cranberry juice: while flavorful, it is not citrus based, therefore does not interfere with medications, while being highly hydrating.

the public library

lists

The kitchen project is still underway. It has take sooooooooo much longer than originally planned. I thought in this economy, it would be fairly easy to get the work done well in a timely manner. Unfortunately, most of the men who have played a hand in the rehab project have proved themselves incompetent. They need a keeper. Instead of being homeowner/customer, I'm also the general contractor, mother/supplier-of-things, and check-er-up-er-on-things-that-were-supposed-to-be-accomplished-in-an-efficient-and-quality-manner.

it's exhausting.

Work is intense. I need to hold on tight to my Half-Full attitude...as it's such a negative environment it's difficult to fight sometimes. I dont' want to be 32 and bitter and angry and irritated in my job and the work environment... I want to be 32 and happy and outgoing and thrilled at the opportunities my job sets at my feet.

I stepped out of my comfort zone, and was encouaged this week: went to a group for single women at the church... its focus is 'intimacy' which includes intimacy with G-D, intimacy with friends/familiy, and intimacy with the opposite sex. So far, it was validating, in a way, to hear about other women's struggles with similar issues... the first meeting was all about introductions and making short & long-term plans/goals. Hopefully there will be some fruit evident in my life as this little excurion continues... whether it's tilling the cold hard soil, planting seeds, watering a little plant, pruning, or even celebrating with a fresh piece of fruit on a hot summer's day. Who knows? it's a journey.