It's Dying!

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Date: 04 February 2008 05:18:51

My *computer* is dying. I cannot see the items on my 'desktop' (but can access them via Start menu). I've backed up almost everything, but am not looking forward to the day when it stops altogether... it's 4.5 years old... and for the past year I've had to have the 'driver disc' in the computer for it to start. Any computer geeks out there who can tell me what's wrong? I plan on wiping everything out and starting fresh in a few weeks - just need to backup passwords/websites/picture files, etc.

Anyway, this is why I started doing my taxes *early* (ours are due the 15th of April). And now I have about 9 questions for the IRS (internal revenue service), so I'll need to phone them... and my desire to make that call about is as strong as my need for another hole in my head.

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I went to church this morning. The pastor was skilled and inspired, as usual. Which was inspiring, and he equipped me with new skills (as pastors should). I intend to join one of their community groups (bible study/discipleship group - whatever you want to call it) which will *also* facilitate in the 'meeting of people' genre of my life.

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Took an opportunity to see a movie with people I've never met before - I was planning to go on my own, and heard about some people going... so I went too! They were nice, and I look forward to doing it again. Much more fun to go with people you don't know than by yourself (although, going to movies alone is fun too - yet people look at you funny when you discuss the high and low movie points with yourself after the film... they must have underdeveloped imaginations or something)

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We had about 10 inches of snow on Friday, so rain got a snow day :D (this made her extra happy) ...and she was completely unproductive the entire day. Which was marvelous.

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I've come to the realization that I cannot meet people unless I'm out there meeting people. I cannot make friends unless I put forth the effort and put myself in the situations in order to do so. I cannot make a change if I continue with the same behavior.
Therefore, I have filled my calendar with opportunities to meet new people. Now, this will take a great deal of emotional energy. And I'm giving myself permission to change my mind...but not without a 16 hour advanced notice. (so I can't chicken-out at the last minute)

Can you tell I like to play head games with myself? I think that's why I enjoy long-distance driving... I play mind games the entire trip (predicting other drivers' behavior, challenging myself, maneuvering my car in traffic... well, it's much more interesting in my head than when I write it out here... rats.) Ah, well - hopefully you get the idea...