today, a little before now

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Date: 15 November 2006 16:36:05

thanks nessa, Smudgie, tractor girl, Dith, T&E, Farli, ee, Semele, JtL, alice, bimble and Ian for the recent encouraging words... and especially Ian for not wishing ill will on me :)

yes, i've decided it's in my best interest to hire someone to take care of the problem in the basement. it might just be a gutter problem... perhaps a little topsoil grading to help guide water away from the house.

it's so interesting... we need water to survive... but water can cause significant damage (to homes, to swimmers, to cities). So a healthy respect of water is in order. i respect water. and i also respect my current thresholds for what i can handle... therefore i will pay someone to help me. thanks for the papal dispensation, nessa :)

you may already notice, but i'm not at work today. it's 10:25am my time, and there was a low-grade fever last night... so, i justified staying home today. not thinking it's gonna work tomorrow - where's the girl who loves her job??! i still love my job, just don't have the energy for it at the moment.

so today's list includes: bleaching the moldy area before the handyman comes over, finding someone to clean gutters, going to pharmacy, laundry, and cleaning kitchen. oh, and picking up food/tape/soap at the store.

thanks for your encouragement, and for checking in. i truly appreciate it. on one hand, i'm totally blessed to be here, to be supported by this community, am thoroughly enjoying it and learning a lot about myself in the process, and hope i'm contributing in some way to others... on the other hand, i question where i am in my life at this moment that i feel I"m only connected to a community via the internet. perhaps it's a matter of trust. perhaps i need to let the people near me, the ones with skin, help me more.. share my load. the problem is, that hasn't worked before. and then i get very vulnerable. and then hurt happens. anyway, things to think about...

just took the thermometer out - still a slight fever. now wonder i've been in a funky mood! i've really been sick! ah, and that can make one not want to face the world with tons of gusto, eh?
:)