Categories: uncategorized
Date: 09 June 2008 19:37:15
hello! i'm feeling much better now, but saturday was a very difficult day... not exactly sure why i was weepy... i was with friends all day, but was a bit off. could it be that my younger sibling just announced a marriage engagement? or that i'm not satisfied with my current state of affairs in general? singleness? people needing me for when it works for them, but not being there when i need them? weight? feelings of loneliness? the increased workload with the summer job? the fact that my house is in disarray until the work is completed... time to be determined? the increased $$ expenses re: home improvements? feeling like i'm the only one i have to rely on, and i don't want to tax the relationships i have by needing help? my current feelings of separation from G-D? perhaps all of these together made me a bit vulnerable... but on sunday i spent the day by myself, and things improved immensely. perhaps the heat combined with dehydration, and pure exhaustion ...combined with the above...made it a difficult day. after resting yesterday i can officially say i'm on the mend. this morning i worked on some reports, then mowed my lawn. and filled one yard waste bin with leaves (from last fall!!!!) i'm working slowly, it's a work in progress. as a matter of fact, i'm a work in progress, too.