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Date: 31 December 2005 22:10:17
Everyone does the looking back and forward at this kinda time, so I thought I would too.
But just to warn you... this is being written after lots of wine!
So...
This time three years ago Socks and I owned and lived in a 3 bed semi on a nice middle class housing estate. We'd been together lots of years, and married a couple of years. I had a full time teaching job in a rough area of Cheltenham, but was generally enjoying it. Life was ticking along nicely.
This time two years ago Socks and I had sold our 'marital home' and separated. I had gone mental in the April and been a right bitch to Socks, and had generally had a nightmare year, doing lots of really stupid things. I was living in a rented maisonette, and he in a rented little cottage just outside Cheltenham. I had just quit my job, and didn't really know what was next, just that I couldn't handle full time work. However, he'd stuck by me throughout it all, trying to make sure I was ok. By Christmas I was less 'mental' than I had been, and we'd been away together over Christmas, and sorted some stuff out and decided to try again.
This time last year we'd moved back in together, and then had to move house again (still renting - it's amazing how lifes priorities change). I had some counselling, which I hated with a passion, but it did help me to begin to sort stuff. We'd been on a totally fab holiday and got pregnant.
And look at us this year. I'm still slightly mental (but I can't imagine that will ever change, that's what drugs are for!), but we have a beautiful daughter, and are very much in love. I'm teaching part time, and looking to increase my work.
My experiences over the past few years have very much taught to me to take things as they come. You never know what will happen tomorrow. I never thought a lot of what's happened to me in the past few years would. As for the future, who knows. I sometimes think that maybe I ought to aspire to something, to want something for the future, but I'm not sure if I do. I want to be happy. I want to continue to be happy with Socks. I'd like my daughter to grow up happy and healthy. I'd quite like to loose weight. To be fit. But if these things don't happen, life will go on. I will continue to take each day as it comes. My priorities have changed. Whatever happens will happen. Shit happens. Good stuff happens. You have to take it as it comes. That's life.