Categories: uncategorized
Date: 23 April 2006 20:34:48
... this is only being posted a few minutes after the last post, I thought I'd do it as a separate post, cos it's very different content!
Why is it that I am drawn to church? I know I only go in the mornings cos I 'work', so I get paid to go (and usually have to do 'sorting' stuff of some sort). But even if I stay in the service I don't participate. In fact, I often feel very lonely at church, despite knowing and chatting to lots of people. I kinda feel I don't 'fit' with any group of people. I'm sure part of that is my own fault because I don't want to get involved as such. Very bizarre.
But the other weird bit is that like, like tonight, there was no choir in the evening (which would usually be the only reason I go in the evening), but there's still part of me that seems to kind of want to go. I mean, how weird is that?! I don't participate in services, I don't receive communion, so if I'm not singing in the choir, or not working, it's kind of pointless me being there. So why is there still that little bit that wants to go. I'm such a freak!