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Date: 16 October 2008 15:04:00
Life's never quite what you think it's going to be like no matter what you're dreams, desires or reality. Five months ago I roughly new what direction I was going in but was praying through my future and what I'm thinking about now resembles nothing of what I was thinking about then.
I am currently a children's worker for a church, been here 3 and a half years and I love my job, I'm also a part time lecturer, lecturing in Child Spirituality and Children in Society. In my head life was always going to evolve round lecturing and children's work thats all that I could see and all I'd desired for so long, with the addition of a husband and a family somewhere down the line but now........ it's completely different!
In June I went to Macedonia for the 2nd time heading up a mission team, and within hours I'd fallen in love with the culture and the people and was already feeling drawn to work and serve there. A couple of days later I met Kole. I'd met Kole the first time 3 years previous to this trip, there'd been chemistry, a mutual interest (but I was very much in denial) and a bond formed. Back in England I spent 3 years very adamently telling Kole that we would never be, I was not called to Macedonia and I didn't know if I would ever visit again, but he was so precious to me. In my head it wasn't practicial, it was too complicated and I was in no position to have a relationship with anyone. Well after much discussion by the end of the 2nd mission I had given up denying everything and Kole and I started a relationship. I've never had more peace about anything, there was no question in my head that he was the guy that I wanted to spent the rest of my life with.
Life has continued, but I find myself in this time of almost turbulant transition as things change weekly as we think about the future, visas, jobs, finances,cultural differences, language barriers and marriage. At times it's a bit overwhelming but through it all I know that God's in control as he opens doors and provides opportunities for us both. My faith is definately growing!
It amuses that when I look back I have been the girl that has said that I am not called abroad but called to the children of this country when in actual fact that was just fear. And man I'm scared but I'm also excited to see what God will do because I know that He has me and the whole world in His hands!