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Date: 17 August 2005 21:05:38
It had to happen -it's the way my life goes.
After the joy of Sunday everything seems to have collapsed.
Last night he was in a bit of a mood - some friends had pissed him off so he was going to take action to sort them out.
This evening I find you that he's booked and open ticket to Canada, he has a job and somewhereto live sorted, he's just got to decide when to go.
I've always known he'd be going - our relationship is after all "only friendship" (well...lovers) but it hurts not because I know he's going but because I only know part of the picture.
I wish I had never allowed myself to get so close to the guy - but I'm hopeless at relationships because I'm always wanting the dream at the end of the rainbow.
Oh well - back to reality.
I guess he won't be going just yet - and he has promised he'd tell me in advance when he'd be off si I'm holing him to that.
It's just that I'm not sure how I'll react when I next see him - can I keep it cool and way "whatever" and still enjoy good times or has the hurt started to kick in?