Post valentines

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Date: 19 February 2006 14:06:16

There's been a few "sorry" messages and lots of back pedalling since the 14th.

One thing I know is that he's still happy seeing me as his "lover" and a friend, however the other friend can't understand that he can't commit to anything serious at the moment and only wants friendship.

I do know that G and I won't go any further as there are too many difference between us and to be honest he wants the option of having a family of his own, just doesn't admit it.

To be honest he can do without female hassle - he's stressed and unhappy at work and he's worried about his nan, who acted as his second mother when he was growing up. He sent me a photo of her 2 months ago and one he took the other day. She looks so frail in comparison, and so near death. Reality says there is no recovery so he's trying to come to terms with her dying.

Still I went to see him as usual yesterday for our "play time". We spent a lot of time just lying there - which does help him relax and unwind. I know that's what he needs to do - even if it's only for a couple of hours a week.

I guess that's what lovers are for...