Bleurgh

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Date: 31 December 1969 23:59:59

The weekend has passed by without me achieving anything, or going out or even feeling like doing a thing.

Life has just drifted and I don't feel part of it. I just want to curl up and give up.

I want to tear the swollen part of my face off and throw it away - it's so uncomfortable. It feels like something alien is growing on my face - like in a sci-fi movie.

I wish the doctors would do something but it's "waiting for results" or "could be a virus" and I'm left feeling grotty; p****d off and depressed with the whole thing.

And God - why the hell aren't you answering prayers for healing? If you really loved me you'd do something. NOW