Categories: uncategorized
Date: 31 December 1969 23:59:59
Why me? And why now?
Just when I though things were beginning to settle down I get news I'm unprepared for. The family are planning to move and it's very complicated so I don't know where I fit into the plans.
So what should be a time of rest and recovery may become a time of stress and panic, which I really don't want to have to handle at present.
What is God playing at? Can't He give me a peaceful life for once? Why can't I have things easy for a change?
Then again - maybe this is one way of pushing me out of London and somewhere else. I mean, there is absolutely no way I could afford to rent my own place here other than lodging again, and at the moment I'm not paying rent because the family know I have no money (no news from Housing Benefit people as yet).
Everything is so vague and unclear and I feel very lost and very alone.